Odium

There is this person that I always get pissed off at, and sometimes wish was dead. I swear this person never leaves me alone,always yelling at me, can never give me a break. Whenever I think of this person, I get mad, and feel sick. I’m like a prisoner with this person and if I don’t do what “It” tells me to, I’m beat, but not physically( that would be easy to deal with), but mentally. This type of abuse is the worse. It’s the type of abuse that just sits there in your head, makes you feel bad like you did something wrong all the time or your the bad person. Everyday I deal with this pain, these thoughts, but it’s getting to a point that I’ll break, I have to break because there is an imbalance in my spirituality and if I don’t I ‘ll become “Odium”. But one day I’ll break out from this prison I live in and be free, live free, and I’ll run, far away from this person because I want to forget forever and embrace the person I’m suppose to be.