Faithful ti'll the end

Is everyone faithful to their friends or do they use them and just dispose of them when they get what they need. Sometimes I just lay down starring at the cieling and wonder if I use my friends or at times take advantage. Or if I'm being used by any of my friends. Most of the time I feel like my friends mean more to me then my family and if I had to save someone I would pick my friends over my own Blood. Is it wrong to feel this way? Most of the time When I look at my family I just feel hate towards them and I don't stop feeling it untill I'm not around them, or I can't see or hear them. I had a lot of anger in me today and I took it out on some people who didn't do anything and I just felt like hurting whoever got on my bad side. I feel like I want to cry because what if I can't control my anger one day, what if I do something that I would have never thought of doing but because I let my anger get the best of me I did it. This is the thing I fear the most about myself because lately I just feel so angery, so pissed off at anything. I love all of my friends especially the ones in my Honors' and Accelerated classes. If I ever did something against you or upsetted you I truely, deeply apologize. I never meant to hurt any of you, I just, I just don't know whats going on with me, I don't even feel like I know myself sometimes because I do things or make even small decisions that I never would have decided about three years ago. Life was so much better back then I lived in a lovely home, my grandmother was alive and healthy, I never knew love, and... I never met my father in a bar for the first time. Maybe some of these things is where the roots of my anger lie. Whatever it is I hope all of you know that your sort of my "vaccine" the medicine that helps me get through my day, that make me happy, who make me laugh and I would never turn my back to you if you were in desperate help because thats just the kind of guy I am. I'll do almost anything for people who respect me and never ask for anything in return, except your friendship and I want to let you all know that all of you are the greatest friends I probably will ever have. And if you have any advice to help me right now I'll take it.

Love,

Matt S.

"A Jehovah What?"

I had someone called a "Jehovah Witness" or something come to my door Saturday morning. He just started asking me all these religious questions, it was weird because I have never been asked so many questions about my beliefs. I swear he was like at my door for at least a half-an-hour. Everything he was telling me he backed up with his bible. I've never heard of this sect. They're beliefs are so much more different from what I've heard of in any christian religion. I learned that they believe that god has a name, Jesus is the son of god, not god himself or some messanger of god. The last thing I learned is that when a person dies, they have no spirit or afterlife that goes to heaven or hell. What do you people think? Do you belive any of this? Have you ever heard of a Jehovah Witness? Do you know anything else about them?